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Chloe Jazmin

At sixteen I lived a reckless double life. By day I was a loving devoted daughter, and at night I became the party like a rock star poster child. This party girl lifestyle continued at full speed until the day I was stopped dead in my tracks by one single word,” positive.” Like it or not, it was party over for me, I was going to be someone’s mom.

                My daughter, Chloe Jazmin was born June 26^th, 1995. Her birth altered who I was as a person and how I viewed the world.  It hit me like a ton of bricks; I am responsible for another person’s life.  A life once filled with parties, bottles of booze, and late nights, became a life filled by diaper changing, bottles of formula, and late night feedings.

                The way we became so fascinated by each other, surprised and amazed me.   Everything   about her seemed to awe me: her first wobbly steps, saying her first words, that first day of school when she was so fearless. My sweet precious baby became this wise, opinionated schoolgirl. Over the years Chloe developed this knowledge of life far beyond my teachings, there are times I look at her even to this day and become thunderstruck by her cosmic perspective.

As flowers bloom and blossom in a lush valley, so has our love for each other. We share our secret dreams and fears with one another. We have experienced joys and victories, happiness and sorrows. One of our favorite pastimes is watching spine tingling horror flicks late at night when the house can be dark and creepy. We enjoy cooking dinner together the fragrant aromas  of our latest dish fills the house, as we dance around the kitchen to the beat of Alicia Keys’ newest song. We get all dolled up in our Sunday best and secretly sneak off, excited to see the newest blockbuster in theaters.

Looking back to that day almost fourteen years ago when my life changed forever, I have not a single regret about becoming a mom at such a young age. The rewards I have known far exceed the party girl lifestyle I once knew. I am forever grateful to have been blessed with such a beautiful, loving, and bright daughter. She was and always will be my very favorite person. Not only did I gain her, but I also gained my life, for the path that I was on lead nowhere but to death and destruction. Without a doubt, Chloe saved my life.